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Knowing He is Not Guilty...

Journal Entry: Sat Jul 13, 2013, 8:25 PM


When I was in fifth grade,
a man followed my brother home.

I remember being on the computer
in the office right by the front door.

At first, it was a frantic knock.
My brother and his seventh grade friends
were quickly getting off their bikes,
my brother telling me to open the door.

I took my time getting up,
thinking they had forgotten their keys.

And then...

The screaming.

A man,
claiming to be neighborhood watch,
followed my brother and his friends home.

He saw them playing tag on their bicycles
on their own school campus,
yelled at them for trespassing,
threatening to call the cops,
and when no police arrived
he decided to take matters into his own hands.

He followed them home.

In his car.

He tailed them, but they saw him.
They tried to avoid him,
but when they got home
he pulled up and got out of his car
and ran up to our front door.

Our front door.

He came to our front door.

He followed them all the way home
and came up to our front door.

My brother was screaming frantically,
not knowing why this guy was following them,
not knowing what he was going to do to them,
not knowing.

Not knowing.

That's what's scariest of all.

And then this man grabbed one of them.
He took one of my brother's friends by the arm,
started yelling at him,
and pulled him away in a fierce tugging motion
while the rest of them were kicking,
ramming, banging, charging against
our front door.

When I unlocked it,
they all came running in,
and we watched as this insane vigilante
dragged our friend down the walk to his car.

We could hear the cries and shrieks for help,
this kid's voice echoing through the windows
of our neighbors and residents...

Not knowing.

Not knowing just what this man was going to do.
Not knowing what our friend would do.
Not knowing...

We took a couple seconds to breathe,
recollect,
and then we marched outside.

There was no time to think,
we were ready to fight.
We had no other option.

There was one thing we all knew,
we knew we were going to take this guy down,
we knew we were going to do what we could to hold him down,
we knew we were going to shatter every window on his car.

We knew we had to fight him.

We knew.

We quickly rounded down the front walkway,
and we saw our friend standing outside the car,
this maniac yelling at him
from the safe confines of his vehicle.
He saw us gathered,
ready to force him off our property,
and he split.

Gone.

Went through all that trouble
traveling all that distance
to give some kids a stern talkin' to.

I've hated that man ever since.

It's a memory I've carried with me
through all the years.
Through all my life.
A memory that has always made me afraid
of the citizen definition of
law and justice.

I've wondered.

Since that day...

...

I've wondered.

A part of me was always morbidly curious,
just what would've happened if that crazy man,
that self-appointed agent of neighborhood watch,
decided to elevate the situation.

What if he did arm himself
to confront a bunch of dumb kids
"trespassing" on their own school grounds
to play bicycle tag on a Saturday?

What if he did feel legitimately threatened by us?
What if our counter assault to retrieve our friend
was seen as an attempt on his life?

What if he defended himself...

...With a gun?

I've wondered.

...

I always thought that
not knowing
was the worst.

Not anymore.

Because now...

...

...Now I know.

...

Now I know.

And I wish I didn't.

...

Rest in peace Trayvon.

My prayers to you and your family.

To your friends.

To kids everywhere
just being kids.

Rest in peace.

...

I'm so sorry.




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:icongeorgezimmermanplz:
GeorgeZimmermanplz Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2013
Okay, so you guys got shook up a little bit. Get over it. I bet that taught you little fuckers not to act so suspicious.
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TheDovachiief Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Student Writer
He killed a child and got away with it. He didn't even get manslaughter. You can accidentally kill someone by hitting them with your car and still get manslaughter. Where is the sense in this? Where is the justice?
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:iconnichrysalis:
Nichrysalis Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Incorrect. What you are referring to is Involuntary Manslaughter, and the criteria for that aren't fulfilled in Zimmerman's instance.
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:iconthetaoofchaos:
thetaoofchaos Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013   Writer
Intriguing and, obviously, very relevant.  Thanks for sharing.
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:iconpixelated--coffee:
Pixelated--Coffee Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013
common sense would tell you not to follow him but call the cops and let them deal with it.:y
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:icondrearily:
Drearily Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2013
...he was a cop.
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:iconpixelated--coffee:
Pixelated--Coffee Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2013
for a cop he didn't act like a cop....
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:icondrearily:
Drearily Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2013
I guess, not really a cop, but on neighborhood watch (hence the journal).

Zimmerman tailed Martin was because he fit the profile.  The reason the community started a neighborhood watch program was because there was a rash of robberies.  Usually preceded by teenagers hanging outside houses in the middle of the night.
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:iconpixelated--coffee:
Pixelated--Coffee Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2013
you're defending him and it's really fucking disgusting me.
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:icondrearily:
Drearily Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2013
Oh, I was under the impression that people made comments to have discussions.
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:iconpixelated--coffee:
Pixelated--Coffee Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2013
or they commented because they simply can
tbh you replied to a dozen other people so you're either lonely or doing this to start shit
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:icondrearily:
Drearily Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2013
You've obviously commented over 4,000 times, there's no dispute about your ability.

On the contrary; only two others.  I was merely on the search for a well thought-out discussion.  Have yet to find one, obviously.
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AvisCelox Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Honestly I can agree, Zimmerman should not have left his car. However he had no legal obligation to do so. He was tried in the American justice system by a jury of his peers and it was determined that he committed no crime.

To try and prevent incidents like this and actual race crimes is all anyone can do about it now.
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coup-de-coeur Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
zimmerman is nothing but a murderer, and he deserves to live in fear for his life, knowing that he got away with killing a child for no other reason than being black.

all of you trying to justify zimmerman killing a seventeen-year-old boy need to take a long hard look at yourselves. this is racism. it's alive and well. welcome to the united states. "liberty and justice" my ass.


"A system can't fail those it was never built to protect."

rest in peace, trayvon. 
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:icondrearily:
Drearily Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2013
So, what exactly made you think it was racism that propelled Zimmerman's actions?
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:iconcoup-de-coeur:
coup-de-coeur Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
basic comprehension of power dynamics in the kyriarchy. 
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:icondrearily:
Drearily Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2013
Because a black person was killed. Is that your only argument?
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AgonizingSwordfish Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
What Zimmerman did was not the best course of action to take. However, the jury made the right decision.
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:iconthedovachiief:
TheDovachiief Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Student Writer
By letting a child murderer go free? Where is the justice in that?
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AgonizingSwordfish Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Zimmerman shouldn't have followed TM, but Zimmerman shot him in self defense. I know I would've done that if someone attacked me. Zimmerman could have prevented the whole thing if he didn't follow him, but that alone does not make him a "child murderer."
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:iconthedovachiief:
TheDovachiief Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2013  Student Writer
It just seems like a pretty bullshit story to claim 'self defense' if you continued to pursue whoever it is you believe is threatening you.
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:iconagonizingswordfish:
AgonizingSwordfish Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Zimmerman shouldn't have followed him. It was a bad decision. Was it worthy of convicting him of murder? No.
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:iconthedovachiief:
TheDovachiief Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2013  Student Writer
I still don't believe he should have walked away with nothing.
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:iconagonizingswordfish:
AgonizingSwordfish Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Let's agree to disagree.
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:iconhotarumitsuki101:
HotaruMitsuki101 Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Wow,, such heated arguments about both sides of the case. Can someone at least talk about the Stand Your Ground law that freed him?
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:iconcountandra:
CountANDRA Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Student Artist
“If Zimmerman had shot a deer without a hunting license he would have received more punishment.”
- Michael Moore
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:iconnichrysalis:
Nichrysalis Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Michael Moore isn't exactly the most credible source.
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:iconcountandra:
CountANDRA Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2013  Student Artist
Nor is the news but it doesn't stop people from using it to back them up.
And Michael Moore is not placing statistical or political points down. He's just quoting his opinion; an opinion based on the fact that this boy was killed and the trial was a big joke.
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Isho13 Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Excuse me... Maybe it's because my english isn't very good? But I don't understand what happened. The guy in the car was a police? A citizen? He killed the kid, he raped the kid, he talked to the kid? I don't understand but I want to, could someone explain? :(
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:iconharushadows:
HaruShadows Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013   Digital Artist
The guy was a citizen. He yelled at the boy and then left.
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:iconcountandra:
CountANDRA Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Student Artist
What????
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:iconharushadows:
HaruShadows Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013   Digital Artist
Oh oops somehow that comment got to who. Meant for someone else
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:iconrixair:
Rixair Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Mr. Zimmerman had willfully placed himself in the position that made it possible for him to take the life of a child.
It was not the child's fault for walking home to cause him to be killed.
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Neko-Anyomus-Neko Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Student Artist
Oh God. I'm so sad I heard ... after the day he was set free he was so happy. (Only if his smile was existing in that time) I started to get so mad that I yelled so loud that I felt like killing my self. You guys! I care about the Marry Wonna (or how ever you spell it) I saw these 2 videos. One on how his death started. One of an old man going H.A.M on the case. They both made me cry. I started to lock myself in the rooms more often. My brother would hug me and I'd hug him back but the hug ened horriblely. I know my user name sounds stupid. But I have fealings.
And Zimmerman killed not hurt killed my fealings.
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Kerocake Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
The white community would like to point out that ZIMMERMAN IS NOT WHITE. Jesus Christ, you people. Blame us on everything, eh?

But regardless, Zimmerman acted in self-defence. It's tragic that they both met. But remember, it is a lose-lose situation here. Treyvon was killed. Zimmerman's life is ruined as well. Who is going to hire him? Who's going to stop people from going after him?
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:iconcountandra:
CountANDRA Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Student Artist
Are you seriously feeling bad for the murderer of someone's baby?

He followed Trayvon. He followed him. The police themselves told him not to but he did, and why? BECAUSE TRAYVON WAS A BLACK KID WEARING A HOOD. Because he "looked suspicious". So then he followed this kid. This poor kid was being followed and he felt threatened. He had every right to feel threatened because he was getting stalked by this racist man who happened to have a gun with him and WILLFULLY SHOT THIS CHILD AND KILLED HIM.
And Zimmerman did not even get "manslaughter" in trial.
And even given his gun back.

So no. Zimmerman can go fuck himself.
Trayvon is the victim and he is the one who was murdered unjustly. He is the one who needs sympathy. Not the racist psychopathic fucktard who killed a kid just because he looked suspicious and he willingly followed and threatened.
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Kerocake Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
The guy isn't racist. He was doing his job. I don't agree with him following Martin, but he did anyway. "Murderer of someone's baby" my ass. Did you know Treyvon had histories of violence and drug abuse? He wasn't an innocent little kid, he was a seventeen year old capable of thinking for himself. Do you feel bad when we kill people in death row because they were somebody's baby? Fox, or whatever media you're watching, has seriously warped your views. Are you sure you're thinking for yourself right now and not just another one on the FUCK ZIMMERMAN bandwagon?

Don't you fucking turn this into a race war. It is NOT because he was black.

It was not "manslaughter". In this case, it is self defence. Did you see Zimmerman's bloodied face? In this case, it was a life or death situation. Because Martin was bashing his head against the sidewalk, with multiple witnesses. Even if he was being followed by a cop, he should not have attacked. Attacking puts both your life and the cop's life on the line. Once you attack a guy, you know that it's either you or him. That's exactly what happened in this situation.

YOU CAN'T FLIM FLAM THE ZIM ZAM
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vest Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013
The guy isn't racist. He was doing his job. 

His job?

Dude, this wasn't his job. He was some joe-blow citizen out on his own playing vigilante with his gun. If he did work with police, he would've followed the orders dispatch gave him when he called 911 to report Trayvon, and he didn't. He continued pursuing this kid anyway. He's 'lone wolf' justice gone bonkers, and put this kid in a dire fight/flight situation that forced an aggressive confrontation. Trayvon's killer had every opportunity to turn back, and was even advised to do so by trained dispatch operators over the phone, but he followed his own initiative which resulted in the kid feeling threatened by a plain-clothes guy following him for several blocks in his vehicle, prompting the kid to fight back when confronted.

I would've done the same.

If Trayvon's killer thought I was suspicious and trailed me home, I wouldn't trust him for a second that he was neighborhood watch either. I too would be just another dead kid in the wake of rampant vigilante justice run amok.
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Kerocake Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Right.

What's done is done, though, however tragic. Just remember it is a lose-lose situation. I am not in anyway supporting his behaviour, but shit happens.

Legally, there isn't enough evidence to convict Zimm.
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CountANDRA Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Student Artist
He was not self defense if TRAYVON WAS FEELING THREATENED. You don't say "Hey, I am going to follow this young kid around and make him feel victimized because, you know, that's okay."
And oh wow, smoking weed so gave Trayvon a ticket for getting murdered unjustly. Are you just saying what the masses want you to say or something?
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Kerocake Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm not talking about weed, I'm talking about his history of violence.

Yes, it was self defence. There really isn't much fault on Zimm's side. Sorry, that 's just the way it is. There is not enough evidence for someone to convict Zimmerman. That is what the jury decided. You seem to be letting your emotions get the hold of you. In a trial, you can't do that. You're the type of person who would convict an innocent man (Not talking about Zimm, because he isn't innocent.) because of your personal feelings.


YOU CAN'T SIMMER THE ZIMMER
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:iconcountandra:
CountANDRA Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Student Artist
"Simmer the Zimmer" what????

That is very true, what you are saying. Indeed, Zimmerman is not innocent at all. But the thing that got me so angry is when people are feeling sorry for this man when there is actual sayings and evidence provided that he screwed up horribly and that screw-up costed the life of a young threatened kid. He followed the kid, he shot the kid, now he better pay the consequences, especially since he deserved jail time; especially since he got off free for killing a kid when a black woman fires harmless warning shots at her abusive husband and gets 20 years imprisonment for it.
As for "simmer the Zimmer", let us say that to the thousands and thousands of people fighting for Trayvon in San Fran and New York and all that jazz.
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James--Steele Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I think that legally Zimmerman is not guilty, but he is not innocent, so to speak.
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:iconcountandra:
CountANDRA Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Student Artist
Totally. Just because the legal system (especially in this idiot state Florida, the penis of America with it's justice system so corrupt) declares he is not guilty, it does not mean he isn't.
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Kerocake Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Why are they fighting? Because the justice system did it's job correctly, for once.
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:iconcountandra:
CountANDRA Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Student Artist
Funny. Sounds almost exactly like what douchebags in the Texas gov said when the entire state opposed their enslavement of women's reproductive rights and they did anyway.
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Synthetic--Ecstasy Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I agree with you.
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Hildugard Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Student Artist
I am sorry for Trayvon's parents for their loss, But it was a Life and Death struggle where Zimmerman was having his head smashed on the sidewalk.
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CountANDRA Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Student Artist
He should not have stalked the kid for four minutes and made him feel threatened enough to defend himself from this creep, then.
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